Wednesday, 28 October 2015

Rant On October

Assalamualaikum.

In shaa Allah my exam will end on 7 nov 2015 and ill be free from matriks for two weeks & then ill continue with sem 2. Recently i am thinking why on earth would i take the exams as i am not going to live on this dunya forever. And i think most of the students here have the same thought as i do.

I remember as i joined some programmes after spm, i always got the same input throughout the process (of being a good muslim). The only reason why i keep struggling here in matriks eventhough i am not so into this programme at first because i wanted to help the ummah. I really do. I am afraid if we were able to see our Prophet saw on the day of judgement and you and me as a muslim with a responsibility had been asked about how was his ummah doing while he was not there to guide us & look at us as we are down here on dunya doing nothing that can never help to save the ummah. How would your respond be im asking you?

I am helping myself to always remember what is my main goal on this dunya and hereafter & what are the features do i need to complete in order to achieve my goal.

I have 4.

Firstly, i want to be a better slave for my Creator
Secondly, i want to be a better ummah for Prophet saw
Thirdly, i want to be a good daugter to my parents
Fourthly, i want to help the ummah to be a better slave to Allah swt, a better ummah to Prophet saw, and a good child to their parents

Thats all that i want to achive in my life.
Nothing could replace this.

And by that, i need to perform well in my studies. That will conclude everything you see?



Monday, 19 October 2015

A Diary


Diari tak semestinya tak boleh dikongsi. Sejak aku duduk kat matrikulasi ni, emosi aku jadi tunggang-terbalik, ha ko diskripsi dia cam hidup aku ni leh diibaratkan dengan taufan ewah ok tak aku gurau.

Aku ada satu habit iaitu aku suka kompol buku nota tak kisah lah buku tu kecik ke besau ke buku jpn ke buku kerajaan malaysia ke hospital ke eh cam banyak sangat lah pulak buku ok anyway buku yang aku ada semua akan digunakan untuk dijadikan diari. Oleh itu, kau akan perasan yang aku memang jenis yang syok sendiri sebab bila ada buku, aku akan start menulis.


Ok aku kongsi sikit apa yang pernah aku rasa & masih lagi rasa.



Selasa, 18/8/2015


Its been almost 100 days (83 days to be exact) since I started here in matrikulasi. Its quite tough but I know somehow it will help me someday in my future. I believe that if we keep on struggling and praying to strive for what we wanted the most in our life, inshaAllah Allah swt will pay the effort and hardship in a way that we ourself wanted it to be.  Its difficult yes I have to admit it. But with this difficulties, we can prove to others what is impossible can be possible. Find your strength. Remember that you live to impress your Creator not humans.



Lagi satu, aku dapat keyakinan untuk teruskan apa yang aku start ni sebab mak bapak aku tak pernah nak push aku gila-gila cam mak bapak orang lain. Tapi aku tahu apa yang dorang harapkan. Dorang tak pernah pesan kat aku belajar pandai-pandai, tengok anak cik senah tu ha senang je mak tengok. Tak, takde. Mak bapak aku bukan yang macam tu. Diorang jenis yang kalau sampai tu je kau mampu, jangan paksa lagi. Tapi itu la, takkan aku nak balas jasa mak bapak aku ala kadar je. So, since that moment I started to realise that to be success in dunya wal akhirah, I need to keep focus on which road I tend to follow because once I failed, I need to get back to square one and play all over again.


I wanted to be a dentist but He knows better-So ya thats all thnkyou.
(thats when I was told to write using my left hand lol)